thats just the way!

Friday, May 29, 2009

how funny it is to love someone but hate that person at the same time. tell me about it cos as i was riddling away wth Mr Beruang yesterday and got myself scolded from mum cos being too noisy, love called. yes he called and he explained.

as usual, admit his mistakes and apologised. i was flattered on his sincerity.
and he knows, though i love him, im still gonna be there for him but
i aint ready to be by his side as his gf. too much negativity can ruin my morality.
and i was suprised that he accepted it wth open-mind. thanks love.
lets the future decide our fate.
i cant wait to meet up wth you for our dinner cum farewell-to-ns wth the gangs.

kak esha and sarah came over to visit mama and borrow my heels. and we chilled and spilled all secrets to each other..karaoked and yeah, it was fun.

another day at work. and really, i need chivas/baileys/rum/whiskey..i just need to clear my mind at this moment..

to all, have a wonderful day ahead. im sorry, cant edit my blog yet cos im like real tired.
take care ..muahhhx :D

dY-iDa

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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Good Morning Yaw.
*yawns..

ermmm, i still sleepy and my taggyboard is unseen to many.

jaja, tagboard ida cn see or cannot??
to all, have a good day.

proper update when the mood arrives :D

dY-iDa

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

muker mintak kene terajang :D

ive got nuttin to update on my love life. its mundane. i aint feeling what i shoud be feeling. i dont even know what to feel. ive created my newer TAGGED acct as the old acct was making trouble. And i realised ive to stop being hopeful about evrything. If at a point, nothing is going according to plan, no point trying to make things right. LOL...

1 wish to a person that i care.

this silence frm me doesnt mean i dun care about you no more. Dun keep thinking negatives about yourself cos even though my feelings for you have to last awhile, you are one ass-but-smart guy. its just that there's too much negativity in your mind. AndAndAnd, your life would get better as you grow older. i will continue to pray for your success. All you need in your life was care and attention. baby, you know i know that you can made it in life. Yes, there's no doubt about it. Please be strong. :D
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im like really shivering due to the rain + no. 3 fan + 22 deg aircon and im studying.. more of sleeping and flipping pages.. haish. what to do to keep me in mood to revise.. its less than a month but im like hacking care abt it...DAMN. really!!!!!! i hate Iz and Dad...fish btul due2 nie.. letak dlm satu kandang anta gie africa aru tau. haish... ohhhhhhhh, now im back to studying...this is Data Analysis. its the subject that i've never failed to listen *gimme full attention to this topic* hahahas and ohh............. i wanna party cos Masha (n**ga) wanted me to tag along wth him and his friends. BUT ive to puy my attention on Finals. its really tempting...ohmyy....help!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Its Monday again and most of the adults are getting sleepyly ready for work and students are all otw to school. while i was looking out the window, i realised its really dark for a time such as 6.45AM. hahahahah.

lets just recap for the days ive been missing aites. *people might wondering whats up wth me this morning?'*.....for a record, i really have heavy eyebags often these days. ~ngantuk mood is back~

alrightey, here it goes, thurs was the day tht at first it ws boring but ended up, me having loads of fun. warned pravina about what might she encounters in future and thank god, i love her loads.

So it was yet another fun night at ARENA. ohhh, not much pictures this time. cos we ended up dancing loads of time.
So thatss basically what happen that night.

moving on, friday i slept like babi(pig) cos too tired. met bahar a while and chill at IMM. lol
then went home and went out to have my dinner wth mum and dad. cik wann and cik *toot i forget his name* joined us afterwhich i went back home. whathappenthatnightstaysthatnight. hehehe...

And finally its Sat, i woke up fresh and mummy was like lets go central but i dilly dally that i went to IMM straight. i had late lunch at banquet bgs. Food was okay but too bloated...met wth my relatives from mum's.......ooh gosh my mum's nephew's son is really hot! hehe poor thing cos he just had his bike accident..hehehe

and off i went home and bath n changed and went to office to clear stuffs and off in the cab to Shujun's Crib

wanna know why i love her soo much.
1st to ...... : SHe's the one that have been there for me since im really young..

Happy 18th birthDay, BFF.
Hope you enjoyed your mini celebration.
i had fun too. cant wait to meet up more often aye :)
i shall patiently wait after your 'A' level.

i want the latest group photos. i saw the one last year while im on naiimah's blog.
find it thur my blog links. haiyoyoyo
after which pravina texted and ive wasted $20 bucks on cab..damn. haiyoooo..

went clarke quay and i saw ____ and his gf. And to my suprise, i saw Syerzan..lol.
he's cute..too bad i forgot to take a pic wth him..
well, after my finals, im soo gonna ajak him partying wth me or follow him..hahaha
ok, i shall say evrything was okay. whatever happens there is only for those that went wth us...actually kn, tkder pape nk tell about China 1. Cumer da penat nk type. lols. nk tdo!!!!
virgin partying wth chabelle/lala and kak kay (lala's awesome cuzz) was really fun.

Cant wait to ajak Jaja party one day..if she wants, JAJA!!!! nk tk gier party samer2???
ok people im really lazy to put photo links here. so kindly visit my multiply to view newer pictures..
:)
have a Great Monday.. no blues clues...lols.

p/s i'll share love life after the commercial break. *mcm phm*
/ok2, after im done studyin later or whenver im free :)

dY-iDa

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

if only...haish :(

i just wished we could be normal.

Sometimes i, myself being hypocrite, lies to people saying im alright.
Since the day i let my emotions took control of me, my love life turns upside down.
When you missed someone the most, its just best to let time heals the pain.
however being me, emotions running, i just cant stop putting myself in dilemma.
having to have full of emotions here and there, i realised that it just making me drained.

thru all the dramas that have been happening. it isnt me! i aint creating all this.
how am i suppose to create Iz appearing meeting me out of nowhere?
how am i suppose to know 'love' would said those words?
who wld create that 'bby' wld meet and silence afterwhich?
And how am i suppose to know 'darling' wld care so much till that extend?
all these aint planned and dramas are script-written.

it seems like im fooling around wth the nick-names and some would think im the bad ones.
think again! it seems like im the confused one by reading the way i wrote it. But cmon, don't tell me all guys lost their egos. if i were to scan thru all their profiles, to some aboved, they dont just entertained me in my life. they have other womens too. and its a choice of mine that will decide the ending of the drama.

so, i didnt create this, i'm acting in it and the climax is all on me N ive the ending of the drama.
Having to love someone that doesnt return your love aint a big issue.
However loving someone that giving you empty hopes and promises, just hurt even deeper. the wound just stay as scars.

So having these minor setbacks (to me, this isnt evrything. this is just a distraction), i really loved my two fantastica bitches. They too are having dramas in their lifes and yes, we are like sharing evrything to each other. how cute is that. And to everyone, sharing to people that willing to listen, took the whole loads off you. And even though it lasted awhile, spending precious time wth them was fun and evrything just wonderful. hmmm
no human beings can run away from making mistakes. The 'Good Person' too can make mistakes w/o knowin. The 'Bad Person' usually make mistakes that are obvious. thus chances are given so that they've learnt from it.

at this moment, the drama im acting in are just a piece of annoyance to me.
i dont know the ending and i wont think of the ending.
in fact i wont leave it hanging either.
Lets see, who lasted till the end of the DRAMA.
fyi, im not a dramatic girl. im just a no-life girl.
i work for the sake of money. the money is for the sake of car(for now)
i studied for the knowledge and education, having to have my finals soon
which is in less than two weeks. And i think you cld have guess, im in no mood to study at all.
no motivations at all.

Some people are just pissed wth me for not studying.
But how can i concentrate? tell me.
i aint studying for exams, i'm not attending work cos of accident on monday,
i've anti-socialising these days :(
however still..
Really, im happy for my fantastica bitches wth their partners.
really i am.

im in no rush to be loved. BUT to love someone,
looking at their happiness, im happy too.
its just the way my system works i guess.
i dun need to find a lover, the lover finds its way to me.
all i need to fill my life are my friends.
:)

' when i become someone you no longer realise, please don't say i've changed! i wldnt have change if all this never happens.'

applies to those that cause these changes. haish. be pissed. but i aint gonna care dude!
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thus far, ive only studied 5 chapters since two weeks ago and 7 more to go within next two weeks.hmm pls motivate me. haish.
hahahas. enjoy partying everyone.
drink more, smoke less, eat moderate, shake hell no and dance on the floor like you've never before :D

more photos soon :)

Overrated truth

Friday, May 15, 2009

i deleted what ive wrote cos its a JUNK.
damn.

Ladies Night.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

A normal Wednesday.

Awesome night chill session wth my babe.
One of the nights of 'clear mind of problems'
i'm not too well and babe wth probs.
however we pulled thru and had a fulfilling night.
AndAnd i tell ya all!!! SHE's HOT!!!!

nothing more wld add to the fun girls night.
but if i cld wish 1 person to be there at that moment,
that person will be YOU, my bby.

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i really loved to see the happy side of you.
With everything that troubles you and
you telling me truly how you feel,
its enough to prove to me, you are serious.
ily. ty.

however bby, wth possible setbacks that we might face,
trust me on this. you are not my first BUT
you're definitely the one that worth.
Worthy of my love.
it isnt love if we don't believe.

though we are from two different worlds.
thru all the dramas that we are going thru,
even if fate doesnt allow us to belong to each other,
YOU ARE WORTHY OF MY LOVE at the moment.

hopefully you sincere in saying tht you really accepted me for who i am.
i wont promise you anything. BUT trust me,
all that i was thinking to promise you,
ill fulfill it, even if it takess forever.

ily bby.
he aint my boyf. he's my present and my future :)
still wont expose him to anyone :/

dY-iDa

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Aint Care What Happens Tonight.

Be it in/out of the club.

-still waiting for Babe-
lols.

tonight its Chivas/Rum.
Arena's Fav, Lychee martini. ty :)

i wanna date a chinese guy. pretty pls ? hahahs

you said you gonna be worried, im contactable thru the phone.

ilytoo, bby.
dY-iDa

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

yest. after a long thought, i hesitately texted you.
i tried to sleep. however, i was still traumatised (tk la terlalu trauma) thus
i did my chores and eventually slept for 3 hrs.

went for P&P and eddy Cine texted me to meet.
chilled, smoked and talked2.
he: so bsk aper plan?
me: wed!!!!! aper lagi? free enjoyment mlm2!!!
he: clubbing??tk abes2.
me: lols. no la not only club, lepak wth gereks ker, karaoke ker...ok per..asalkn FREE
he: (LOLS) u memang, minah FREE!!!! kwang3.
me: *hiakkkdushh*
home sweet home. its 11.20pm when im homed. hahahas

you texted me and exactly 1a.m, you called.
i wasn't in the mood really after yesterday's conversation,
however today, you did tryin to sounds like yest but thru the end of our conversation,
YOU made me smile. ty bby for taking the initiative :)
ilytoo...

sometimes between the one that you wished for & gave you false hope and the one that kept denying the fact she's/he's in love wth you & gave thousands excuses not to be wth you the one that will make you
SMILE is....
the one that kept denying the fact she's/he's in love wth you & gave thousands excuses not to be wth you.

it doesn't mean you'll end up together with him/her, BUT trust me, that someone is the person you'll never forget that once upon a time, you loved him/her.

what goes around comes around!

Monday, May 11, 2009

inside i hide, outside i bloom
feelings that fight, emotions overrule
-IM NOT EMO-ING -

Farix, how long more are you gonna deceive me???tell me! Just for how long more? Aint it enough that you left me once? why must you said those words to me? all these, ive asked. None! you've answered. You said this isnt a game to you. You said you really do. Not once i've said that anything else matter. Even if for now or maybe in the future, we are never meant to be, all i want to do now is be by your side. Brightens your life that has been dark thus far. BUT you had to shatter me. Really, if you don't need me, just don't reappear again in my life.

as usual, what goes around comes around.
you said you love me, i said 'i love you too'
However, this love aint going anywhere.
you had your doubts, i had mine.
still, the end : ?????? (let this stay this way :/)

im not sad, im not gonna shed any tears.
its just a resprect from me sincerely to the decision you've made.

Rated: A

Putting all back on the shelf of 'Memories'.
-untouch and unseek-
reminiscing all would only makes me fallen off my track.

to: Damn hacker, hahahs (eventually you'll find me again)
mesage: Its alright. im patiently RE-DO evrything again :) -C***I, no life A** person-

Wokies, ive sent my new link to people. im done wth my paperwork which doesnt make a difference cos i still need to do more soon. lolz. And to end this entry, i had FUN wth bebeys and kins on my weekends.

deep in your voice, i heard you shattering your life away. When your text msg woke me up frm my sleep, i felt awake replyin it. AND it felt good to be able to hear your voice again. thanks. i smiled.

'to love someone doesnt mean you have to be with the person BUT its meant for those who've tried.' - cos when you love someone, you want him/her for yourself and vice versa. thus if you've tried and situation aint allowing the love to sparkles, then its already different thing.

example: you just know him and you both clicked. Both of you dated and fell in love. He's your first real love. However, you realise that he's someone fancied by many. Thus his attitude towards you change over time and he left you. You tried to talk things out yet its useless. You have every right to be mad and disappointed but bear in mind, 'its okay to love him still yet not being with the him cos 'to love someone doesnt mean you have to be with the person BUT its meant for those who've tried.' and yeah you've tried. :)
nothing in this world stays wonderful forever. be strong. But once in awhile, believe in miracles.

dY-iDa

Sunday, May 10, 2009

All NEW!!
dont't ask why.
But if insists, *blueaks*
nudge me in msn :)