earlier today, i had a wake-up call from my lala-life, showing myself that ive only succeeded a few of my dreams and wants. Pathetic, i must say. ANd also i realised that when i failed, i never picked myself up and try again instead i picked myself up and moved on. EVEN MORE pathetic. so i reminisced and told myself ' aku takley cam gini, by 21 aku tk ley nak kan aper yang aku nak sey' and now, my mindset changed! i no longer to be weakling anymore. Yay mE!

ok move on.
i must tell ya, my friday and saturday night were filled with lots of laughter and good times to clear my messy life.
met up with ii and akarui for a drink, a game of poker and whole night of laughters.
saw a stoopid scrambler rider flying off his bike while riding in the carpark. luckily he was fine. See RIDERS,dont show off if you already have a bike. its okay to show but never show off, he was speeding thinkin that he could went in the carpark quickly not knowing he over-shot. thus that became the topic of the night between 3 of us. hahs.
too bad no pictures taken due to LUPER-ness(forget)
andand my saturday.
1 mission accomplished.
To meet kaq lysa after her Malaysia trip.
Quite kekek(funny) i tell you. hahs.
Ate @ ANANAS. and chilled at bukit gombak.
Blueaks! wont tell which part of gombak. hehe.
while at bt.gombak mrt, met dreamworks mate. he remembers me!
lolx.
off to chilled. talked, camwhored and poker games. hehe funny you know!
at night kaq ernie and her son came followed by her bf.
the 3 of them need to settle some stuffs so i was tasked to take care of that lil kid.
he's loud, he's energetic and he cant stop talking BUT he's adorable :D
afterawhile, we went off.
basically thats my weekend. how ok? at least im not that lonely.
for more, pictures @ multiply/fb
oh mann, school schedule out! and im dead. how to work and school with this schedule?
haish....


the becok yet adorable little one. teehee

Happy BirthDay, my dearest Teddy Bear.
May all your wishes and dreams will come true :D
im soo sorry i cant make it to your bdae party at zirca tonight.
really tough life im going thru at these moments.
Hope you enjoyed your party. i'll try to make up to you soon aytes sweet :D
no promises tho..
DearestSisterForLifetime,

remember this cake?teehee.
im sorry this year i cant do much on the day you get a year older again.
:(
but anyhoos, HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY!~muahx~
Ida sentiase doakan yang terbaik untuk akaq.
even tho we are not close physically.
akaq must always know that you are close to my heart.
Hope you will enjoy your birthday.
AND hope you like this POST for you :D

♥ ♥ ♥ you.

posted to FB, '' i miss everyone ''
hell yeah i do.
dates are to be planned.
i guess its time to be myself again. ive lost myself too much in the game of love.
AS OF NoW, whatever happens, i must tell myself ' im strong '
COS 'everything happen for a reason'

so many important birthdays coming but hell!
my pay is end of month. feel so shitty.
but i know myself. *madcosifeltsouselessasafriend*
i dont even want to think whats gonna happen on my birthday this year
its the same old thing every year. lonely.
so my friends whose birthdays are coming,
im sorry if i cant celebrate with ya all.
IM BROKE.
lolx. (unless you dont mind belated) *giggles*

to kaq ecah, sorry if i cant do any suprises like last year.
BROKE TO THE MAX.
but no worries, i will do a belated wth you.
remember sis date last year?
lets do it again
and at the same time celebrating your belated :D
♥

it is sad things turn sour after being sweet all awhile. YET AGAIN. however, the more ive gone thru all these, the more i became immune. i felt like hey, its just another game. i cant continue the game even if i want to anymore because i love myself too much to let anyone else (besides those that already did) to hurt me deeper. thank god, experiences led me to think wiser and act clearer. if before when this happened, i would be whining and crying for days but now, im much more calm and realise if that someone doesnt love me, i still love myself :)
i dont belong to him also, so? let love take its own course.
still if im a loner, be it. (i know after awhile when im not on good mood, i'll start to whine about loneliness but i will get over it asap)

now ive got agendas to settle!

1. MEET UP WTH ALL MY FRIENDS!
be it coffee, window-shoppin, party, chilling, etc..
2. TREAT MY FAMILY TO DINNER or smth!
3. CONTINUE MY both LICENSE ( insyaallah )
4. GO HOLIDAY!
5. MAKE MORE NEW FRIENDS!
6. GET RICH AND RICHER EVERYDAY. just keep dreaming

SIMPLE YET I ♥ it sooo much!
simplicity is the best!
i removed my tagboard. so if you wanna me to tag you,
leave it on FB aytes.

Happy Chinese New YEAR. gongxifacai
&

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!

didie never failed to make me smiled on this very special day. thanks dear. u really are my true friend even we are far apart :D
and to you: thnks for calling me to wish me too. i thought you would forget. but lets just see what gonna happen next.
going out to chill again. love my new skin!

Ive LOST!
ON HIATUS!

alliwannadoistoholdyoutight.
butyoudidntrealisethat.


if only you care.

p/s not in da best mood.
valentine's next week and guess what? im single
3rd consecutive year not celebrating proper valentine
with special someone (godknowswho)

valentine 2008,
'Happy Valentine's Day to all.
this is the ferst yr ever that i spend my 14th Feb dateless :(
BUT however lynn spent the whole day having a wonderful outings together.
although i kinda feel numb being dateless and receiving no roses
but the fun times and laughters wth my best fwen just filled my day.

thnks didie for that bear. im sorry i didnt get anything for u.
ouhh ya, i will if u noe what i mean'

valentine 2009
spent with didie.
Suddenly didie came and hug me. i was surprised....yeah!!!! he did managed to lie to me that he wld be busy on Vday that he actually came down...wee.

As usual, he deleted the photos yet again. Bloody you! i will snap your pic one day! Thanks for the necklace, bf! ilytoo.
BUT you still owe me another trip to KL n candlelight dinner, baby!!!hahahahahaha

you guys must be thinkin that he is my BoyF, no he's not! he my dearest BestF. yeah bebey!!!
lets see what he gets for me...its a bit blurr. but i love it.

sorry no pics. i hope ya'll enjoyed your Vday.
see ya.
going out now...meeting carina again!!!'

2 years in a row and its going to be 3 years this year.
congratulations fyda.
lets just wait and see. its less than a week to go.
chao!

everything spoilt!
the feeling, the emotions and the thoughts went missing.
it happened far too many times and since the recent dilemma and problems
i had to go thru last yr with (insertname) thruout the whole relationship,
im far much more careful now. Now, this?ermm

1st.
Serious talking, it isnt the creativeness or how clever u are
to say those mushy sayings to me.
And it isnt right for you to say 'i love you but please wait, i need to time to choose.
(obviously not the exact words, i cut it short for better understanding)'
choose between ur ex-s and me???still choosing. hmmm
no wonder the quote ' saying ILOVEYOU is easier than showing ILOVEYOU '

2nd.
ive waited. yes, its not long ago when i said i could wait and become
a better person for myself. we promised each other.
now why arent you? why are u still stuck?
stuck doing the same old thing which wont show any improvement.
it takes 2 hand to clap!
AGAIN, ITS YOUR WORDS.
back to 1st, what for im waiting if i have chances of losing in the choosing?

3rd
And i realise, every moment we spent together, it has been all about you
and your problems, you and your problems again!
everything about ur life and ur emotions. i cared.
do u try to know more about me then? if i dont open my mouth, you wont bother
to even ask.
OR for a second, think about US. (although we are not together)
AGAIN! whats the point of waiting?

then when we met up, and i look into your eyes and ur actions, i lost my courage
to continue when i didnt see urs to try to love me. i wished you would have at
least tried. i know at this moment, alot of problems running thru ur minds.
to prevent myself getting hurt even more , i rather stop. stop seeing you, stop loving you (obviously i cant)
and stop evrything.

unless you are improving, im moving on. im sorry. its hard. but i will have to this for myself.
it starts to hurt already.
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i had a great time last thursday chilling with my sistas,
Kaq Lysa and Kaq Ina.
Camwhored like nobody's business. hahahaha.

thats all folks. will update on whatever happenings,emotions
of this coming week. CNY coming very very soon! ANG PAO otw. haha

i really do wish i could hold your hand everyday!
but it seems like its too difficult to even talk to you these days.
i FcUking MIss You BODOH!!!

did you ever know?
i think straight, its okay if im not loved, but as long i get to love, im okay.
you might think its crazy, but hey! its life.
life always create unimaginable scenarios!!
hahahaha

im starting revising my marketing topics.
hopefully i will A's my pre-papers.

i guess i have to take up the courage.
its almost time. haish