ok, currently waiting for hunney, Pravina and hunky, dahnial (mcm paham) to text me back cos apparently they are suppose to meet me at 4 plus2..But look at the time now? haiya..its no big deal.
a lil waiting wont do me any harm. haha
so how's my upcoming? well im basically alright. not much different. nuttin special too. still lonely but aint gonna ponder over it. as long im physically and emotionally ok, then im happy. finding guys can wait a lil while. now my main priority would be my career and have LOADS of fun!!!!
indochine with bff and aa(adk angkat) was awesome...
shopping was absolutely great with dahnial.
though my items aint that expensive compared to dann's but hey, i love them loads...
i gotten myself some new stuffs that wld improve my life. hahas. supposingly tomoro i have jalan raye dates wth ex-dzps, however most are not going and none sms/call me up so i guess i cancelling it. AND cant wait for Saturday. Raye date wth Gangs! And party with dearie bro and mayb hunney. heheehehe yeah!!!!!
call me fyda instead of dy-ida.
Carino is my last name. Yeah bebey!!!
Completely not worth my time to reminisce such situation ever again... he's a jerk and he will always be. let him be. as long he wont interfere my life no more.
i wished i could do so too but unlucky on my side, to get my money back, i have to wait. Still i have patience. not like him. Anyways, lets drop the subject! its history.
ive moved on. yes, its lonely but im not hogging onto the loneliness cos it wont ever kill me. it will never ever kills. work is bugging my life that made it harder for me to be lonely. i talk to myself a lot of times because of work. hahaha like some documents doubts. hahaha
Dbl O wiith Kak Jade, Kak Ella, Abg Hairi, Hadee, Sha, Is and Dann were fun!!! though its a lil down but i still enjoy myself wth them. And i saw yati (HBS). ouhh dance awhile wth teddy bear. it was hell of fun. Mayb shall head down to Azzucar after work on Sat..see how larh. hahaha
F1 today, in the evening. it was alright. Nicole is really a HOTSTUFF in reality. im not allowed to take pictures though i have my camera with me still im not allowed to snap2. tomoro is the big day for my work. its the agenda day..awaited day! hhaha..ok im nonsense.
after F1 ended, school gonna starts!!! lols...i think im going to at least rilekz with work and not take more events. very the leceh you know. And with this pay, im not allowed to spend cos there loads of things to settle and pay.
insya'allah by next year, im done with my car license, get my priorities right and saved up to the amount that im able to open up my own business(shall not elaborate, blueaks!!!) including having my own car. amin
But really i have to clear every single mistakes that ive made till next year. Once all that settles, im gonna do my best to make my family happier before myself and go onto making myself happy. SHOPPING...hahaha
friends, gfs and bffs are sort of mad at me cos im like too busy for any of them. im sorry. i will try to make time for everyone okay?
please gimme time .
dY-iDa
WhatEVER!!!!thanks for knocking my head on the wall, MAT!
basically i have to forget the one that i put my heart and soul into.
i guess this is the reality i have to accept. :(
life has to go on.. hmmm
wont be online as often already. concentrating on working then :/
what goes around, comes around.
well, GOD is still fair. And now i know he helping me cos he wants me to be better. amin
ok, now my focus will be work.
shall i say, three days of Raya, i'm feeling much more lighter than before.
lepakz session was awesome and i miss couple bunch with bitches and jerks. Woohoo.
Mainly fahlynni and Pravina..ohh ohh ohh cant wait outing with my KhakIs.. lols
AND clubbing/partying back on track..
Cant wait to get over wth this weekend because of the F1. With the event settle..i will prioritise my whole life again. shall do it better.
wont be around often. but if i do, it will be of a good use.
I think i shall stick on with this job even if its tiring like hell..haha
dY-iDa, muahx to all
Its Hari Raya Again.
ive got nuttin much to blog.
BUT just want to say ..... ' Sambal Sotong/Octopus from Wak Ahsia is superb!!! '
for the first day, just a few main pictures to tell the story.
for more, as usual
-click on me-kak Jade sempat mms me her Raya pic. LOLs.
Hope you all had a wonderful Raya alright :P
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my friends.
Mohon Maaf, Zahir dan Batin.
yeayea, its raye. though many things happen and many obstacles in life to go thru, i redha.
maybe its a real lesson learnt. :D
Enjoy the FeStive Season!!!!
JOM JOM Beraye!!!.
Asalkn DUit RaYe Ida JANGAN LUPER!!!!!..blueaks
dY-iDa
Loneliness just killing me softly. yes im smilling. yes im look happy to you all. cos i dun want any worryness in anyone's eye. should i be blame for all that happen? i guess reality does bring the bites to me. i just cant believe that i ended hurt and felt really priceless. im not ready to start all over again...i guess laying low would be the best option. i loved him, i love him still and and i will always love him. if he just left me like this forever, love cant get me anywhere. Love isnt in my thoughts no more. Cos of him, he's the reason that im strong to love. The best thing that happened in my life has already left. back to my dull life then.
i will still strive for the best luxuries that i need. But for me to fall in love, i just resent that to fate. for as my happiness, im no longer hoping nor wanting it. its reality!!! no want always get what they wanted. right? im still gonna be me. but whether the good or bad me, im resenting to fate. Im not gonna let it decide, im gonna let it suggest. by which i'll choose to resign to it or make the better of my life.
Mayb he doesnt know, but im hoping for just one last thing.TO BE BACK IN HIS ARMS. but i wont pursue this hope. for 1 reason, im not going to run after him nor he gonna run after me. if he really wanna be the good guy and change, im sure our love will bring us back together. BUT if it isnt, then what choice left??? move on then.
dY-iDa
why must it be soo difficult for me to let him go?
Why must i feel like a weakling when he left?
Why cant i let go?
its not just love that im looking for.
Its more of a companion that can go thru anything ang everything together.
And now tht its gone, i just lost myself to hysteria. Maafkan idah :(
Yes im not resigning to fate n no im not running away.
But i must try my best to face this reality...
Dy-ida
by now, if u all are reading, you should be guessing why a change. and to some of you, its really obvious. ok then. deezul is over. Im back being dY-iDa, solo again.
yes, i cried.
yes, im disapponted.
yes, i felt useless.
however naz and mat really tok me out of this. im sorry everyone for the stupid message. this is my latest words.'this is the experience that i grow up from.
Resigning to fate would be my last option in life.
What makes me cry, gives me to courage to move on.
No more running away and no more giving up.
All i'm gonna do is to stand up again on my own.
However this smile doesnt mean im happy.
Seriously, nothing is happy to me no more.
Im smiling always but no one will know whats
inside. :( '
i guess im done once and for all. Memories will be left memories then. ...
hmmmm
dY-iDa
the loneliness is killing me.
Why do i still love and need him for all that im going thru now?
Why must i face my fear all by myself again? Damn you.
jangan lah berjanji untuk setia, jika hatimu tidak ingin berubah, jangan lah kau lafazkn rindu dan sayang tapi cintamu tidak mendalam.
Bukankah kau membunuhkan perasaanku ini?...
Sudahlah. Im just tired of trying. U still love yourself more. Stop playing with my feelings. Please leave m. Let me suffer now than to suffer for the rest of my life. Plsss.
If u really sayankan me like you always SAID, then show me or easier leave me to despair...
dun blame me If i suddenly change. U never spare a thought for me. You think i never want to know your problems and care for you? Its just that you never told me anything! Now the time we spend together is none and there's no longer communications between us. So if you think this relationship is not worth ur sacrifice, dun get annoyed if i change. Im soo sorry :')
being concern, im being scolded. Being emo, i being scolded. When i told you, i miss you, you sounds not happy..when i dun want you to force yourself to meet me, you scolded me. So what shld say or what shld i feel? Whats happening to us? I dun get you at all..dun keep saying you love me when u didnt do anything to make me happy. Ive been thinkin and crying all alone for the past few days thinkin what have happen to us? We dun communicate anymore. Thanks u. This is the happiness u PROMISED?! iM not gonna say anything anymore uh. If u really want this relationship, dun prove anything. Show what u are capable of doing. ' thanks, i am HAPPY!'
When the one you need isnt gonna make the effort to meet at the very least for a little while to let go the missing-each-other feel, friends like them are the ones that have been my pillar of support to be stronger and pull myself up again.
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the chilling session after work was fun. Just like i had fun with my DP friends the night before.
shall meet them for more fun so that i wont feel alone at all.
while otw back home, the dude in purple called me up to chill. so met my new friend, MATNOR(luper uhh name lagi satu)..chill2, talk2, smoke2 and home sweet home.
ouhh yeah. first time i saw a guy jumps on the seat just cos i saw a flying cockroach. lols
Working at a cafe?or work at my recommended event company?stick to my job??
ahhahaha cos, i want something different. i want more excitement rather than to stick back to think abt love. :D
to you, if you really too busy to make time for me and ask me to understand you, ok then. i respect that. :/ imissyou .. sobsobs
to tell ya the truth, ive been crying the whole day. With these problems that im facing, its really hard for me to get back on my feet. To be strong like before. BUT i guess nothing can help me no more.
there are things that too personal to be even say out aloud. im not sure how to explain BUT i guess its not over yet.
he just doesnt know how lonely it is to have him but still i must push my feelings aside cos i dun trust you at tagged at all. you may tell me you are serious, but blakang me, me tk tahu pe. seriously lah, i really want to trust him, but..urghh!!! tagged is ruining me and killing me.
Why am i still feeling insecure? haish. ive never been this lonely before. haish. whats the point having a boyfriend when i feel lonely and pushed aside.
so instead of going to work after school, i went out to meet my DP friends. they are my happy pills. though i was late, but at least they made my day end well. haha
eat2, walk2 and talk2 at geylang serai. haha sweets! ain with her kebabz, naiimah with her 'dengdeng' and me go geylang just to buy a pack of wet tissue. hahaha. im proud of them cos all knows where they are going in the future. all the best to my DP friends and also, i wont stop being your friend. hehehe
andand
ouh ya, next2 is Hari Raye Date and karaoke Date :D
ouhouh... while at geylang, i bumped into ehem ehem. hehe
ok now im getting some sleep..tomoro have to work lah dey. hehe
dY-iDa
i cant believe that this is really over.
GOD, gimme strength to carry on.
PLSSSS.
and ive no strength to start all over again.
Damn.
dY-iDa
i miss my old self when i was the bubbly ida who's not afraid of being lonely.
As life goes on, i really lost the bubblyness in me.
i kept vigil to myself of all the feelings that i wanted to feel.
Tapi biler da luahkan perasaan tu, orang yang mendengar macam tak memperdulikn pun.
Life with and without love just the same.
i wish i could live my life without thinkin about love of the opposite sex.
But i cant cos everywhere i go, anywhere i go, the loving-looking couple makes me jealous.
why tkder pun 1 love me because he really do. haish.
i dun want to be a bitch. im just a normal girl. But the guy tat im love making me feel like im a mess. work and study also da affected. haish. if im not strong, i wld left him long ago, but why im so foolish to still be wth him? im not sure either. i just wished......i just wished.....ahhh nvm. my wishes have never came true. why must i continue to hope? haish.
seriously, im really lost in this relationship.
mengharap-harapkn, diri me sendiri tertiarap. haish.
dY-iDa. not that good mood. :(
i rate this movie 6/5. best!! 2 thumbs up!!.
hehe. watch with zul at Jurong Point.
Gerek ke pe. laughing all the way.
i recommend everyone to watch this movie too.
:D
just not sure what to write in this box. haha :D
tata
elmo's mad at me cos im nt sleeping.
my eyebaggg are getting bigger!!!
dY-iDa
I cant explain why i love him too much. i dont wish him to know that i cant live wthout him. Cos i want him to know about it in his heart. and i really hope this would last. And this would be- our relationship. for me to know new guys, im just not into getting know anyone all over again. its a phobia. Please GOD, give me strengths to go on stronger by day and make my patience longer thruout everything that im going thru in my life. Amin.
To Zul, i love you, i really hope you wld change for the better of yourself baby, not just me and enjoy riding. Im happy for you to get your bike :)
love, dY-iDa.
p/s gone for days again. need to settle emergencies matters. I'll be back soon people.
Continue waiting for me aye :P
AND i miss DIDIE!!!!! balik SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!...nak crite evrything kat ue!!!!!!!
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Zulkiflee Shah,
3 months being in your life, i've gone thru a lot. A period when i was really rich, a period when i was left with nothing wth my hand. A period where i was really sick that i ended up hospitalised. All the fights, segala kemarahan dan kebencian dirasai. tpi at the same time, remember esplanade's comic strips? remember you asyik dpt drinks yg tk sedap kat pizza hut, rmbr the day yg kte nak shop tpi pape u like, i tk like and pape i like, u tk like. Also the talks that i expressed my life. i gave my whole life to live with you. Cayang u sorang saja di dalam hati i. Maafkan kesilapan ida selama nie and ida hope u can change to be a better man too k. i miss you a lot lah belo!!!!!!!!!
hmmm dy-ida
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Elmo have been my dearest companion thruout my time in front of the screen while i was focusing on my DIPLOMA project. Without Elmo, i wouldnt be able to survive this challenge. I accepted this challenge that i had to face to further my education. I love my Elmo a lot okay!!!!
I'm just too tired and anxiety to see the end result of my days of hardwork. Hopefully it gonna go well. Busy isnt the word for me to use to tell all my friends. The right word would be IM FOCUSING. hehe
already 4 days ive been missing him. i'm just too occupied wth my project that i hope he understands. i just to have happier future and thats why i focused more on my project than him at this moment. Seriously.
baby, you are important too. and thanks for understanding me too ya.
Missing you like hell lah belo!!! hahahas
now, im gonna go
sahur and off to sleep cos i've to work and continue finishing my project which is only 60% done :)
dY-iDa
Yeah Bebey!!! Its me again....Its been ages, hey all!!!!3rd Month and still flaws are still visible between each other.
all feelings and expressions of mine been expressed.
im done. all left to be able to continue strong with this relationship
would be his actions, either i'm able to trust or even believe his words
on his follyness, im just gonna keep it to myself.
IF HE really loves me like he SAID so, he would knows what to do.
In my life, i still feel empty. But now im more focus. Focus to continue
my educations and also achieving the best thing in life.
Ohh ya, my car license is still stuck. done wth theories but $$ isnt
enough yet to start any practicals. hahs.
I'm soo gonna focus cos i really wanna be a graduate.
And yeah..adapted by Taufik Batisah,
' Life is too short to just continue to think.
Actions speaks louder than words '
see you all around :D
dY-iDa, still standing strong.
