Im UTTERLY SICK LIKE A PIG. i literally cant do anything at all.. if i over exerted myself, i ended up fainted if i lay down like a dead corpse, my coughs wont go off.
SO SORRRY people who've been finding me. its not i purposely want to ignore the texts and calls. my immune system is seriously low.
been to 2 different clinics liao. still im having flu, really bad COUGH!, fever, aches, sorethroat.
its the end of 2009 s00n. and the moment of revamption im gonna revealed soon. its nothing much. but its really vital to me in my life :)
i shall do a proper update soon..
Is it wrong for us to be in love? why cares about others? care about your happiness first. I LOVE YOU :)
my weekends :D
Sunday, December 20, 2009
avatar was awesome! 9/10. recommended to watch!!!
kaq nana came over to my crib. had some matters to clear. i waS whining aWAY at home cos i was seriously bored till tears rolling. thus i went out wth teddy bear was out wth teddy bear to cathay and watched late night movie = avatar :) fun. after which chilled at esplanade. and trust me, its a GHOST town. hahaha that was SATuRDAY. next movie will be ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS :D
Sunday. went to tampiness. kaq ecah told kaq nana abt buying a blouse there thus accompanied joe and kaq nana to buy her clothes. trust me! its really dificult! while shopping for her, i was doing some window shopping. haha no luhh, i bought smthing. hehe
was in love with their tank tops. working hard to shop again. lolx then saw, 4 guys in black towars shuttle bus to Giant. haha 4 funny guys, my friends la..members. so me and kq nana followed them to Courts and had fun. afterwhich chilled awhile with kaq liana AnD now, im home sweet home. that was my 3rd last weekend before 2010.
i revised and reviewed my new year resolution. and i will only reveal it on the 31st. :D tc sweet people. another new week coming :)
Seoul Garden!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
after soo many years, today would be one of the bestest short dinner spent! its wth my whole family. i really mean it! the 4 of us went Seoul Garden for dinner at Causeway Point. happy tau!
AND I TELL YOU! IT WAS FUN!!!!!
mum and dad eating concentrately. lolx first round only! 2nd, 3rd was much more!!! hehe this was justthe beginning!! me n bro camwhoring! HOTDOG!! most of it is courtesy of MOHD HAIRI! hahahaha look at baba's reaction!!hehe this all abg's!!! siblings again!
shall do this more often..like every 3 months once or smth.. hehe nytes peeps :)
anonymous
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
to anonymous : lets summarise everything. thanks fer the concern and i accept ur words. but do you really know me? or u just hear people's words from surrounding. frankly every life is tough. but its how one face it. there's no wrong for one to be emotional at times cos its just mere emotions/feelings. my life tough? aint as tough as those others far more worst than mine.
cheat? ok i ask, have u not cheated once in ur life? hehe everyone cheats but they are given the chance, and i thanked god, i was given the chance to change. also yes again, its tough. but thats reality. never the less, i say im not wrong. but when u said ' so dn't always cheat ppl while u'll get more cheated =) ' , im totally unagreeable. its already nature of life. and cheating at different levels are looked at differently.
for example, one tends to leave his/her spouse after marriage and ran away after marriage just as a reason to be stressed. and lied to others. another example, one tends to only think abt his/her own welfare rather to think about others feelings. when he/she knows, others help him/her a lot.
everything happen for a reason and to me, when i cheated, i realised how stronger i should be to be alive. and it pains to be cheated on. however you will realised who's ur friends or foe :)
again, thank you..i know u care and its wrong of me to make it a big fuss. but its just my thoughts :) hope you understand.
ok, updates! updates! updates!
14 more daysand everything will be different :D how different? just wait and see. im still in the process of revamption. *wonders* what should i present to my dear friends for new year. hehe. happy tau :) okie, slight changes on the 26th. will update. ohh ya. i was thinking on celebrating 2010 in a different way. text me people :D fun,fun,fun hehe.
though i have few friends to trust these days. but hey, at least i do have true friends. those that wont leave me on the lurch. hahahaha
ohhh yea, 5 more days to TP babe! excited and nervous you'd know. okay okay. now im done updating. what more you need to know.. AND last but not least :)
TO ZULKIFLEE SHAH! FROM BUKIT PANJANG. WHEN ARE YOU RETURNING MY MONEY? BREAKING YOUR PROMISES? IF YEA, JUST TELL LORH! IF NOT, WHEN ARE YOU PAYING? ITS BEEN FAR TOO LONG. OR SHALL I JUST ASK FROM YOUR MUM? THAT WONT DO, I JUST WAIT TILL END OF THE MONTH BEFORE I WILL FIND YOU AND GET AN ANSWER WHETHER YOU ARE PAYING OR NOT. :)
OOPPSSS!
sorry about yesterday's post. i was suprised myself when i woke up this morning and read my own rants. hahah
basically, i was too emotional i guess. as random as usual, i picked myself up again from unstable emotions.
Happy-Happy Selalu :D seriously no mood to blog. i will do a proper post soon k
Regretted!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
what can be more worst? sad? lonely? or both at the same time? haish. i just wish i could scream out loud! but i know thats not possible. shits already happen. i have to face it! haish loneliness is killing me!
ARGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tears almost rolling soon i guess :(
warned!
Monday, December 14, 2009
WARNING!!!! this is a long post. Let me just share about my monday (14th). Was out to interview. Again as usual 'we'll call you if you are hired' and i jolly knew what it meant. haha. off to Yishun, met Sid and off to Wldns. Ate, laughed, nokia centre then bought movie tickets that eventually he ended giving it away free to a couple randomly. LOLx. its all due to him wanting to meet up with his friend.. Vasan/vassan i think (sorry if i spelt it wrongly). he fetched us and off we went to far east to fetch hunnie, pravina..how funny, we actually got lost on the way to far east. heavy traffic you'd know.
so when pravina arrived. actually vassan used to be pravina's captain when me and her are werking at OCC. hahaha what a small world. went changi, ate and then off to changi beach and chilled. then its late so i slept over at Prav's haha. overall i enjoyed the night :) this was my monday.
as u seen, ive not have proper updates since forever. ok life? dull emotions? unstable feelings? trying my best to be stronger day by day :)
ouhh yeA. im just getting excited. for once, im not the one that is always at wrong. i did things of my own matters that now, 1 down, another 1 to go :) only my closed ones will know. i am happy that my own mum sees the light of truth shining thru slowly. it aint matter no more. if you are not worthy to be a friend in my life, why must i help you out. when you jolly well played me out. damn. sorry but you're busted! hahahaha
okok. turning the topic to my kendarat services. im glad to be able to seek help from lysa. With her guiding, its easier to excute all plans :) will be meeting up wth her and he co-partners for more details So, to peeps who are in my crew. Remember that we are under (for more information, crews get back to me personally k)
was it long? tired to read? then click X lor. ahaha just kidding.
im excited for Christmas, Novena, 26th Sentosa and Countdown. btw plans anyone for COUNTDOWN???!!! im gonna continue my stuffs now!!!
OHH PLEASE! THIS GOES OUT TO ZULKIFLEE SHAH! WHEN ARE YOU RETURNING MY MONEY???!!!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
what it feels like.
im not here to update. but loving this song. proper update soon :)
talk.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
talking to sid relieved my undenial thoughts that have been bothering me these days. talking to sid also made me stop all hold-backs that ive gone thru these days. i cant possibly share it wth any of my known friends (cos of certain reasons). and i've been complaining to sis ecah a lot and i dun want to trouble her or make her sick and tired of me. she's been my greatest help and she's the only one that really cheers me up.
talking to sid was a total relieved and made me realised how much more stronger i should be. thnks dear for cheering me up. i guess this how moving on works. stress but however it is, life still goes on.
chatted wth lysa earlier and im happy!. at the very least my kendarat is getting somewhere..planning starting and execution preparations soon. chyka, you can do it! :)
Updated !
Lets Have Fun On The 26th December 2009 A Day At The Beach With Friends And Making More New Friends. Swimming, Camwhoring, Chilling, Games and more...
After All The Fun On The Beach, Have A Splendid Time Chilling in One of The Sheesha's Place at Arab Street.
Lets Have Fun and Enjoy A Day. No Formality And Most Importantly, HAVE A GOOD TIME :D
stupid-in-love
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
i love this song. haish ---------------------------------------------- Mmm, stupid in love, oh Stupid in love, hmm
Let me tell you something, Never have I ever been a size 10 in my whole life I left the engine running, I just came to see, What you would do if I, gave you a chance to make things right. So I made it even though Katy told me that this would be nothing but a waste of time, and she was right. Hmm, don't understand it blood on your hands, And still you insisted yon trying to tell me lies And I just don't know why.
Oh, this is stupid, I'm not stupid don't talk to me like I'm stupid I still love you but I just can't do this I may be dumb but I'm not stupid
My new nickname is “you idiot” (such an idiot) Hmm, that's what my friends are calling me when they see me yelling into my phone, they're telling me let go,
he is not the one. I thought I saw your potential, Guess that's what made me dumb. He don't want it, not like you want it, scheming and cheating, oh girl why do you waste your time? You know he ain't right. You telling me this, I don't wanna listen. But oh, you insist on repeated you're trying to tell me lies And I just don't know why.
[Chorus]
Tryna' make this work But you act like a jerk Silly of me to keep holdin' on But the dunce cap is off You don't know what you've lost And you won't realize till I'm gone, gone, gone... that I was the one, which one of us is really dumb No, no, no, I'm not stupid in love
[Chorus]
I may be dumb but I'm not stupid in love
Monday, December 7, 2009
Friends Welcome!
Date: 26th December 2009 Time: 10am Place: Harbourfront Mrt Station
Sentosa ( Siloso Beach ) - wet activities - games - get to know each other :)
Sheesha-ing (after Sentosa) - Arab Street Time & Place tbc
Objectives : reconnecting with friends and making more new friends.
sometimes
Saturday, December 5, 2009
its great to get to unwind myself. i was foolish to move on by getting to know new guys. and yes its bad. the kind soul wasnt kind afterall. the teddy wasnt truthful afterall too. i was humiliated by my own feelings. i guess its been too much to handle. Peer and family pressures are making me paranoid. earlier today was halfway writing about how hurtful its been. but halfway through i got irritated and shut down my lappy.
simply : if korg-korg semua continue to hurt me deeper. why not, snatch my get-well medicines andlet me die. everyone lets my emotions down. i felt deep though. i just couldnt accept that fact afterall. ya'll wanna hurt me even more right? geez, let me have my peace will anyone?
i had a great night wth hunnie, Pravina. and she loves my hair. lols but its kinda short period though. i just wish i could spend more time and more talks wth her. its been hell of a ride of life for me. As usual dxo-ing. rate: 6/10. at least there's a new band :)
ok, a week passed. lets see what the newer week gonna give me :) luck to all Standard Chartered Runners! and Happy Sunday :)
Picture of the day
Friday, December 4, 2009
i decided to stay away from tagged and facebook for awhile. also i decided to just keep a real low profile for awhile too. nothing excites me. nothing worries me. nothing is nothing already. mayb its time again to reflect but dont worry im still alive. Just away from everything at the moment. im sooo soo to those who still cant find me. im away.
i'm letting that matter to a rest. wanna know why?? im tired. tired of being hurt. im sorry. i need to trip over this life. And start anew. Whatever happens, happens uhh. i dun really care no more. let it be uhh..
now, im gonna keep quiet. very very quiet. hmmm
Thursday, December 3, 2009
i just cant believe that i was conned over and over again. thnks people who likes to make a fool out of me!!! Fun right?? care less for my feelings and care even lesser for yours. i wont respect you anymore. AT ALL!
okay, basically i was hurt and i have to learn to be stronger each day. day by day, i wished i wasnt fooled. but it seems to continue hurting me deeply. was supposed to be at zirca but shits happened. so i just had dinner wth teddy bear and chilled wth him. how i wished i was at zirca. actually there is a specific reason why i didnt go, but i regretted and i should have went. haish.
so today was supposed to be at an interview. but haish..aku kene conned k! so stayed home till evening and ryan wanted to meet up. so at 6.30 pm, he came and we chilled. tok-tok, smoke-smoke and chilled. then off he went home. riduhwan promised tomoro, so im gonna see how lorh. haish :/ i want my happiness larh!
ChykA ft RyAn
it continues
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
finally, there's a kind soul that wants to offer me a job as admin asst. thank you ridz. So he will recommend me and get back to me tomorrow. hopefully, the recommendation works. this is the only thing that im looking forward to.
tonnes of things happen lately. yes, its settled one-sidedly but hey i need to clear this thought off my head. Also there are too many people ive yet to meet. its just time and cash that doesnt permit. besides so, my feelings are really immune to the extend of me wanting to CRY the whole night.
thank ALLAH there's sarah and kaq esha to make me smile :). thanks korg. they came over to my place on Monday and chilled. me and kaq esha memekak karaoke-ing. haha while sending them to MRT, dann called me and rushed me down to LOT1. apparently zul was there. i wasnt so sure of what to do. but since da ternampak. i just do, what i think is best lorh. im glad 3/4 of the story have ended. Last part before the climax, i will definitely end this book.
enough of shitty things, lepakz with mira (adkangz raz), nik, syahid (sec sch mate), dahnial, amy (abg dann) and abg razak near dann's place. it was kecohrable and its nice to be out that night. :) it was FUN wth the giggling. went home, slept like babes. lols
woke up, get ready and off i went to Sengkang. Maner lagik. sampai saje, sarah tk sabar nak dye, so lynda dyed mine and sarah's hairs. While i highlighted kak esha's hair. hehe fun taw. rugi tk trun..hehe then we ate, we chilled, we smoked and i was shocked to see my hair colour. ALMOST BLONDE! hahaha. tpy if they say nice, then nice lorh. hehehe...something new, i guess. hehe afterwhich, i went to meet abg fer awhile and chilled. ohh ya, i had the worst strawberry milk tea today. so bland. haish.. then back homed.
As for my current, i'll figure a way out, some way or another. And thats a promise to myself. now, sleepy liao. going off to lala land.
picture of the day
Ms dY-iDa
9teen this April. LOv3,SeX & MaGiC. Giler-Giler Selalu :D
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