sometimes being good one/being bad one deserves no purpose.
i dun even know what to do anymore. nuttin im doing is ever right.
its always a misunderstanding between us.
ADN i really hate that.
i really wish that both of us can stay happy together.
even though we argue loads of times.
BUT just now, i could see the boredness in his eyes while with me.
i really hope he isnt bored, cos i really wants to make him happy.
however the words thrown to me in 1 day, just pissed the hell out of me.
no sympathy at all.
haish :(
sometimes i just dont wanna argue wth u at all.
BUT my worriedness about you,
my 'imysoomuch',
and my care & concern about you
AND all i get in return,
'DONT BE A PUSSY' ???!!
i do trust you.
but dun tell me you have no doubts abt me at all
at times u might feel insecure if there are too many guy friends in my life.
so i have my doubts.
And i told you, its alright to tell the truth.
p/s doesnt mean i said i wont do it and allows u to do it (it-getting to know more gerls/guys),
you can happily do it. if you have feelings, i have feelings too.
ohhhhh..
to at least console me till im fine was the least i wished you'd do
BUT calling me a pussy for the 2nd time. haish.
iim not a softer. and continue calling me 'pussy'
cos thats the sh*t that gonna pull down my morals :(
haish......
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kak esha, i'll re-construct your blog soon aye :/
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TO ALL SINGAPOREAN AND OTHERS IN THE WORLD,
TAKE VERY GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF AND YOUR LOVED ONES!
THIS VIRUS IS TRYING TO BRING US DOWN.
but CMON, WE'VE GONE THRU FAR MORE WORST EPIDEMICS BEFORE THIS.
LETS FIGHT THROUGH ALL THE WAY!
dY-iDa
btw, R.I.P Michael Jackson, died of heart attack at 50&R.I.P farah fawcett, died of cancer at 62.H1N1, we humans are strong to face you bloody virus.
shoooooooo!!!!
i miss my hair. no more qn ask why i kept touching my short hair.
at this moment, i felt real lost in my own world as it seems as though
nothing is going right. even partying seems lesser these days.
i wanted soo much by making others that matter happy, but i
ended up feel the pinch/pain.
simply say, i did almost evrything for Mr.
thus by looking at him being happy, im happy.
but deep inside im emotionless. haish.
i remembered picture aboved was
'the day i know im comfortable wth myself except for the Silver Heels.'
i wanna be the old, crazy and nonsense bitchy ida.
but whenever i tried being myself, i'll ended be misunderstood by Mr.
he's a much better boyfriend to me then the early days.
yes he thinks about himself a lil more but not as much as before.
at least i felt that i existed in his life.
But one thing that he forgot,
im a person that love to be surprised.
even a small surprise will count cos
sometimes small things that you do, shows the most concern.
mayb it takes time. most prolly, im gonna delete my TAGGED acct
either one of them.
Cos to me, no point having 2 accts.
Its really irritating to entertain him and his gals addition in his accts
And guys that kept adding me just cos of my pretty faced picture.
however ive to be strong to make this ~insertword~ happen.
strong enugh to always know that, even thoughi can never be the gal that you fantasized abt,i'm not as hot as the girls that is in your acct AND ive temperament attitude butIM THE ONLY GIRL IN YOUR HEART not them.cos really, im afraid to lose you :D
yes baby, i love you. i really do.
ty for the change and yes, you are much better
BUT still, IMY lah bodoh..
I NEED NEW CAMERA!!!!!
IM SOOO GONNA BUY HIM 'Missey Iyaki's smooth perfume'..-melts- lol
ohh plss, i want more and more pictures of me and him!!!!
pretty plss...
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i was surprised when ~insertname~ texted me today.
he was asking how i am doing and blah blah.
i stopped replyin his texts when he asked how am i.
mayb because i really hate his talkings.
whatever lah. i aint care.
cos my boyf is way better than him.
(baby, jgn kembang lah!)
dY-iDa
Zulkiflee Shah, IM SORRY.
I WAS WRONG.
I WAS AGITATED FOR NO REASON!
iF YOU DO ACCEPT MY APOLOGY, TALK TO ME NICELY K:(
I DUN MEAN IT, I WAS EMOTIONAL!!!!!!
im just too scared to lose you. it looks like now, i myself alr lose out. haish..
foolish me.
IM SORRY BABY!
Bff's birthday was a success. it was awesome ending to my weekend and my freaking exams.
seriously, i aint in da mood. just visit my multiply for photos aites :D.
sorry.
can anyone that knows me and zul, just tell me whats so complicating about my relationship wth him???
haish.
arghhh, up to you larh zul. she's hotter than me. she's better.
JUST WHAT WRONG DID I DO?
(im not being drama but it happens countless of times to me.)
now you decide. i'm gonna just shut up.
Cos really, at this moment, i don't know whats complicating between us????!!!!!!!
haix.and i dun realised that we were arguing on anything for the last two days :(
it always like this. when i choose to ignore every other guys and really did, this had to happen.
i wished i was in K.L..arghh, whatever lah...
Zulkiflee Shah, if you are reading this, tell me!
what so complicating about us???????
i dont know what to say to you.
(still dont get it why im mad at you???next tyme, lau nak ader pompuan lain pun kn, jgn kasi ur gf ur tagged nyer password then kn, tell other lady, that ur status is actually 'complicated'.....
IF really she fall for you, definitely you gonna dump me for her. padahal she doesnt know a thing pun. haish..)
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i should have just shut my big mouth up! And never spill anything i was feeling to you.
now i felt soo stupid. arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ive told you i dun want another failed r/s. i willing to sacrifice.
now look! who's playing behind who's back?
if this have to end anytime soon, im really speechless and im sure gonna be blank out. :(
oh god, give me strengths PLEASE.
Damn. really if you do love me, how am i suppose to trust you now????????
people, dont call me today, sms only. i'll get back to you all tomorrow.
DAMN. foolish me...
even though im mad at you now,
all that keeps playing in my mind was ur words. icNfwly. DAMN.
whatever larh kans, ianya akan terjadi lagi sekali nyer if i ikut perangai lamer...haish..dY-iDa
Yeah. its all over..no more late night mugging :D
no more straining eyes on notes and tire my delicate hands on writtings :)
all have been asking me where have i been?
LOLS
im still around :)
just at that point, i need no disturbance to focus...
(hahaha like real)
but really, its irritating to study and make contacts wth everyone.
its not nuisance, but mayb im just comfortable studyin alone. lols
evryone used to say my previous blog template like corrupted
and my tagboard are like squeeze-ing.
Thus i change the template to my own design..
HOWEVER!!!
only Jaja, fikri and Molly that tag????
OHMY..
meanwhile my hit counters kept increasing...
silence readers??????
cmon, i dun bite..
just tag and i'll link you up! haiyo..hmmph.
i'll make sure if this continues,
i'll start writting all to myself :D
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btw, its the weekend!!!!
what a way to end the papers and having weekends!!!!! woohoo..
Andandand to add to the excitement!!!!
its BFF Pravina's 19th!!!!!!!!!
Happy BirthDay Babe....
again like kak esha's bdae, how i wished i have loads of $$$$$
to make an affair on her birthday.how i wished :(
Happy BirthDay Babe!!!!!
now im off to eat my dinner and get ready to meet her!!!!!
tata..
dY-iDa
i hope this time round, my tagboard and my layouts are not a hassle for you all.
if its really complicating, do tell me..
cos then i'll ditch blogspot. lols
woah...ive done my revisions. notes are all over the places at home.
tomorrow will be last day of running around.
i dunnoe if anyone were to realise, ive not been active be it online/offline.
Reason : Study. lols
(ida becomes a good girl-more of a nerd to myself)
how was my weekends???nothing special. normal like any other weekends.
although so, i wanted soo much to eat IKAN PARI bakar..anyone wanna treat me????
ok, ive done up my blog, tag people!!!!! actually it was done up yesterday, after few rounds of bloghopping, i realised my blog is like stupidly full of nonsense. (mestilah, ida herself nonsense.) SO i changed it.. hehehe.
sorry to all. its just locked temporarily. i'll update more soon. its just now, there are things that ive to concentrate.
isly, baby farix :D