if only...haish :(
i just wished we could be normal.
Sometimes i, myself being hypocrite, lies to people saying im alright.
Since the day i let my emotions took control of me, my love life turns upside down.
When you missed someone the most, its just best to let time heals the pain.
however being me, emotions running, i just cant stop putting myself in dilemma.
having to have full of emotions here and there, i realised that it just making me drained.
thru all the dramas that have been happening. it isnt me! i aint creating all this.
how am i suppose to create Iz appearing meeting me out of nowhere?
how am i suppose to know 'love' would said those words?
who wld create that 'bby' wld meet and silence afterwhich?
And how am i suppose to know 'darling' wld care so much till that extend?
all these aint planned and dramas are script-written.
it seems like im fooling around wth the nick-names and some would think im the bad ones.
think again! it seems like im the confused one by reading the way i wrote it. But cmon, don't tell me all guys lost their egos. if i were to scan thru all their profiles, to some aboved, they dont just entertained me in my life. they have other womens too. and its a choice of mine that will decide the ending of the drama.
so, i didnt create this, i'm acting in it and the climax is all on me N ive the ending of the drama.
Having to love someone that doesnt return your love aint a big issue.
However loving someone that giving you empty hopes and promises, just hurt even deeper. the wound just stay as scars.
So having these minor setbacks (to me, this isnt evrything. this is just a distraction), i really loved my two fantastica bitches. They too are having dramas in their lifes and yes, we are like sharing evrything to each other. how cute is that. And to everyone, sharing to people that willing to listen, took the whole loads off you. And even though it lasted awhile, spending precious time wth them was fun and evrything just wonderful. hmmm
no human beings can run away from making mistakes. The 'Good Person' too can make mistakes w/o knowin. The 'Bad Person' usually make mistakes that are obvious. thus chances are given so that they've learnt from it.
at this moment, the drama im acting in are just a piece of annoyance to me.
i dont know the ending and i wont think of the ending.
in fact i wont leave it hanging either.
Lets see, who lasted till the end of the DRAMA.
fyi, im not a dramatic girl. im just a no-life girl.
i work for the sake of money. the money is for the sake of car(for now)
i studied for the knowledge and education, having to have my finals soon
which is in less than two weeks. And i think you cld have guess, im in no mood to study at all.
no motivations at all.
Some people are just pissed wth me for not studying.
But how can i concentrate? tell me.
i aint studying for exams, i'm not attending work cos of accident on monday,
i've anti-socialising these days :(
however still..
Really, im happy for my fantastica bitches wth their partners.
really i am.
im in no rush to be loved. BUT to love someone,
looking at their happiness, im happy too.
its just the way my system works i guess.
i dun need to find a lover, the lover finds its way to me.
all i need to fill my life are my friends.
:)
' when i become someone you no longer realise, please don't say i've changed! i wldnt have change if all this never happens.'
applies to those that cause these changes. haish. be pissed. but i aint gonna care dude!
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thus far, ive only studied 5 chapters since two weeks ago and 7 more to go within next two weeks.hmm pls motivate me. haish.
hahahas. enjoy partying everyone.
drink more, smoke less, eat moderate, shake hell no and dance on the floor like you've never before :D
more photos soon :)
