i miss my hair. no more qn ask why i kept touching my short hair.
at this moment, i felt real lost in my own world as it seems as though
nothing is going right. even partying seems lesser these days.
i wanted soo much by making others that matter happy, but i
ended up feel the pinch/pain.

simply say, i did almost evrything for Mr.
thus by looking at him being happy, im happy.
but deep inside im emotionless. haish.


i remembered picture aboved was
'the day i know im comfortable wth myself except for the Silver Heels.'


i wanna be the old, crazy and nonsense bitchy ida.
but whenever i tried being myself, i'll ended be misunderstood by Mr.
he's a much better boyfriend to me then the early days.
yes he thinks about himself a lil more but not as much as before.
at least i felt that i existed in his life.
But one thing that he forgot,
im a person that love to be surprised.
even a small surprise will count cos
sometimes small things that you do, shows the most concern.

mayb it takes time. most prolly, im gonna delete my TAGGED acct
either one of them.
Cos to me, no point having 2 accts.
Its really irritating to entertain him and his gals addition in his accts
And guys that kept adding me just cos of my pretty faced picture.
however ive to be strong to make this ~insertword~ happen.
strong enugh to always know that, even though
i can never be the gal that you fantasized abt,
i'm not as hot as the girls that is in your acct AND
ive temperament attitude but
IM THE ONLY GIRL IN YOUR HEART not them.
cos really, im afraid to lose you :D

yes baby, i love you. i really do.
ty for the change and yes, you are much better
BUT still, IMY lah bodoh..


I NEED NEW CAMERA!!!!!
IM SOOO GONNA BUY HIM 'Missey Iyaki's smooth perfume'..-melts- lol
ohh plss, i want more and more pictures of me and him!!!!
pretty plss...
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i was surprised when ~insertname~ texted me today.
he was asking how i am doing and blah blah.
i stopped replyin his texts when he asked how am i.
mayb because i really hate his talkings.
whatever lah. i aint care.
cos my boyf is way better than him.
(baby, jgn kembang lah!)

dY-iDa