i gave my all, im asked to take it back.
i gave some, its still too much.
i wonder whats the best amount,
i wonder again.
i wonder yet again..
i wonder over it again...
im just numb.

i dunnoe what else i could do,
all that he saw in his eyes, my paranoia. but did he ever realise how insecure it have been.
trust? i gave it, he had to destroy it majoring in relationship.

i feel soo dead, almost everyone told me to leave him for good. BUT no one knows exactly how i feel.
i love him,
i need his attention.
i need his selenge-ness.
does he even care to reliase if he had ever did anything for me at all?
anything to make me happy that is? im not sure if i cld recall any.
but why am i still with him? love made me blind?NO
cos i stilll felt that courage that i fall for.

now, im not sure if im gonna go on like this, keeping evrything to myself and not letting it out to him as to not hurting his feelings but my very own feelings is draining.
as much as i wished, im gonna stop wishing.
all these wishes will never come true afterall.

í'll just go on wth life even if it hurts badly insde of me.
thats what im doing, shutting my world just to myself :/