the more i pretend, the more it keeps running back to me.
and the more i try to forget, the more it haunts me.
Until it appears in my dream, even i can suddenly think about it
in the train on the way to work. its really frustrating.
arghhh...

ive tried. all i can do now is to cry. to whose shoulder and to who that really cares?
im just unable to overcome that fear anymore. its not easy to carry on. haish. its really draining me out.

yes, im bubbly to all. But if you are my true friends, you could realise that i tend to
pretend to tell everyone that im okay. deep inside. only me knows. the bubblyness isnt the
same when im happy.
free times made me think abt this stupid things. every minutes count. so solution : use evry minutes of your free time to do something worth doing. rather than to waste time and think. and now im blogging, im still thinking abt it.shifting it away now!!!!!!!!!
gonna rest my mind and sleep. i have to wake up at freaking 8 am!!!!!
arghhh.....

dy-ida