thats just the way!

why again?
why now?
why you never end it afterall?
why must you create drama?
why cant you let me lead my life?
interfere-ing isnt bringing you anywhere?
neither control-ing me!

im sick and tired when u repeatingly saying you love me and you wont be like before. where our love can continue to blossom like before. hey! you kept saying but you didnt apply it.
ive told myself to give a chance. but what are ur chances? 0. absolutely 0.
doesnt mean im nice and im close to you, it means im definitely accepting you back.
where's your courage, muhd izdihar?
a million sorry(s) but if you doesnt change, wont make any differences.
being a friend to you is rather safe than to have a relationship wth you.
i tried beingpatient. i tried to be sincere. i've opened up to ur family since so long.
i pity ibu and akak! trying to advice you from day to day. but u are still in the world of your own.
im proud of u being educated thus far. but boy, there's a lot more to learn in life than just from the books. i think you should take physchology next!!!
sorry baby, i sounded harsh. but its reality. please!

stop telling the whole world that im your girlfriend. Our love story have long ended.
and it will take more than effort to fall for you again. frankly, the feelings just sorrowed baby.

while you are tryna pursue-ing me, im hesitatingly getting rid my feelings for 'him'.
i cant believe that feelings grown deeper..since zul left, 'he' have been there for me. but im not sure. he's far away. and he told me ' not to wait '. thats y im hesitating to get rid of 'him'.
but thats life. its either happy or sad. im alright. mayb at this moment, im just destined to be lonely. i dun mind.
life still have to go on.

i told myself: to say ' i love you ' gonna be difficult. i need to see that courage again. ive lost myself to a courage cheated before and im not gonna fall into that trap again. moving on with life without love.
dy-ida