klau perasaanku boleh berbicara,
telah ia katakan,
ia pedih.
ia panah.

ia telah jera.

im sorry adry. i cant make any decisions now. my life have been mundane till you came. however i cant express my feelings to anyone or even to myself..im emotionless at the moment. i need some air. your company made me smile. though at times i forced myself to smile. your care and concern shows how much i matter in your life. Im sorry. I felt like ive used you. And i dont wanna hurt someone as sincere as you. its just that im still trying to get over my recent love. And how much i tried to erase him, he is still in my heart. Like you told me, to love someone doesnt mean i have to be with him, im doing it well to care for him for afar.

thus, to love me, doesnt mean you have to be with me. let me go thru all that ive to go thru in order to find my happiness again. BUT as selfish as ive never been, can you please stay in my life as my friend?Will you? Close friend maybe?
Im really sorry. i hope you feel me.
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i need myself back. ive lost myself along the way in my life.
i need the happiness back into me.
all these while ive been forcing. and i hate it.
haish
I HATE BEING FAKE!!!